Tired.

A small number, four seems
Only four defects innate within
Miseries untold it causes
Incapability overwhelms me
binds me

Cause of misery to one entity?
No. Helplessly I am led to
cause misery to millions
Only four defects they are.

I am tired Nitai
tired of this bad bargain
tired of my conditionings
tired of my imperfect service.

Unqualified, yet I beg
to make that day mine
when your form, glories and name
become inseparable from my breath...
inseparable from my mind...
inseparable from ME...